NEW XANGA!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was kinda gettin tired of this one..hehe...

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please, please, please, subscribe and leave comments!! thank you so much! i love ya'll! mucho mahal

xoxo courtney

by the way..its February 4th 2005..my date is being gay again...

[[sigh]]

ok..im feelin a lil bit better..im sick stuck at home..usually i would be jumping around with joy but for some reason im not..cus its boring staying home from school! no ones home! oh well..hopefully me, kristin, -n- david can make it to round 1 tomorrow..i REALLy wanna go! we had the most interesting convo. on the phone last night..lol..if u wanna see some quotes from it. go to kristin's site.. www.xanga.com/flirty_angel

yep..i gotta give a shout out to my friend LOUiSE!! sorry louie! i couldnt go, i had effin exams! lol, but my dad said i could go visit ya'll on my way to the states in the summer! yay! haha

hmm..what else..oooh! i get to pick up my FAR EAST sweater today! yay! im still bummed that i cant actually go with ya'll..KRiSTiN NEEDS ME FOR SUPPORT! dont worry girl!! u will do fine! i know u will! do sweat it! KiCK THEY'RE FAR EAST ASSES!!!!!!! WHOO! haha! AND BRiNG ME BACK SOMETHiNG! lol...

i guess thats it for now..i'll write in this shat later! ttyl! mucho mahal!

xoxo courtney

I don't want to be that girl

OMFG!!!!!!!!!!

ahhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im having a REALLY bad day...i mean..how many people's trust can i lose? i seriously dont know why i do it..i promised myself i wouldnt anymore..its amazing how one person can change everything..just like that..

i cant trust anyone anymore..i just cant, no one here is trustworthy, not even myself..which is the one part of me a absolutely HATE! why cant i cant fucking keep my mouth shut?! how many times has that broken my heart?!

why am i blaming people? its my fault, whenever this happens..its always my fault..i tried but i cant stop...its stupid of my i know..but still...

"gotta take the good with the bad, smile with the sad, love what you got and remember what you had"

its amazing that i dont take my own fucking advice...

i REALLY need to keep myself away from everybody for a while..FAKE a smile..ACT happy...and REMEMBER what i had, and what i could've had..just like i did before everything happend...

i have learned
a lot through the years
through fake smiles
& unseen tears
friends sometimes arent
f O r e V e R
that love doesn`t always
L a S t
happy memories stay with you ..
those moments that go by last ..
so enjoy the good things that go on now
cuz g O o D . S h i T never lasts .. x3

i used to spend
everyday
thinking about you.
when you walked by
i lost myself.
do you know what thats like
to love someone so much but
not have them love you back
you miss the way i looked at you?
well i dont miss the way you didnt look at me.

ey u guys! sorry i havent written in a long time, i've been lazy..lol, n/e way, here are some pictures of me -n- amanda! lol

^me -n- my sexy visor! lol

^ me -n- amanda

me -n- amanda "fagging" around! (haha, kristin, sorry i used ur word!)

me at amanda's

us being stupid (as always) just takin random pictures! lol

OK, thats it for now! mucho mahal!

xoxo courtney

ey u guys! i took this from jillian's site! lol, sorry i havent ACTUALLY

updated! i guess i will later..hopefully.. mucho mahal!

xoxo courtney

::AbOuT SwEeT MeE::

Name~ Courtney

Age~ 14

Birthday~ August.29.1990

Eye Color~ Brown, sometimes turn green

Hair Color~ ima redhead!

Height~ iono..im short, haha

School~ Yokota High School

:: Love Life::

Do You have a boyfriend/ girlfriend~ nope

If so whats there name~ dont have on

How Long have yoo been datin~ ^

Crushing or Loving them~ crushin

Have you ever been dumped~ yea for stupid reasons

Do yoo have a crush~ yup

Do they knoe~yea

Do yoo want them to knoe~its better if they do

::Favorties::

ice cream~ chocolate chip cookie dough..and strawberry

food~ Mexican, Filipino, Italian, American

holiday~ Christmas, birthday's, Holloween

actor~I got a lot

actress~ i got a Lot

color~ blue, black, pink, white, red

sport~ i L0VE to cheer, i love to WATCH football, basketball, and soccer

hobby~ i got a lot

song~ dont have a favorite song..i just like songs..lol

::This or that::

Pepsi or Coke~ Coke

McDonalds or Burger King~ burger king

First kiss in the hall way or First kiss on the beach~ doesnt matter, all that matters is who the person is..lol, but the beach is sweet

Best friend or Best FriendS~ Best Friend

Mom or Dad~ stupid question..

Silly or Funny~ both

Haha or Hehe~ haha

Dog or Cat~ dog

TV or Books~ TV sometimes books..

TV or Computer~ Computer